ON MEDITATION

On my journey of achieving optimal health, I've decided that meditation is to become a daily discipline.  I've been reading a lot about the power of meditation and I'm convinced I need this in my life.  On so many levels.

And just as soon as I uttered the words "I'm going to meditate"  BAM!!! out came one of my ASSUMPTIONS.  I barely got the meditation CD out of its jewel case and here I was re-hashing all the times I'd tried meditating before and how it never works for me.  Who was I kidding?  I've never been able to sit still for anything!  Quiet my mind, never! And to further validate my inability to meditate, I got hit with a coughing fit in the first 2 minutes of the deep breathing exercise.  Nope!  This won't work at all, never has, never will.

OK, time to pull up my big girl panties.  I've got to take a look at this never ending cycle.  This is serious stuff blocking me from doing what I want to do.  It's not like I'm being forced to meditate, I actually want to do it and learn to do it right.  But if I keep this assumption alive,  my goals of mastering meditation will never come to fruition.  And that wouldn't be right.

So, let's think here...just because I haven't been able to meditate with any success in the past, why would it be so this time?  Oh, right.  It doesn't have to be so. 

This time I put the CD in and I did my best.  Did I get to a higher level?  No.  Was my mind quiet?  A few seconds here and there.  Was I able to shut out all the internal chatter? Not all that well.  But hey, at least I did the whole 20 minute session.  And I feel good about that.  I look forward to meditating tomorrow.

What assumptions are keeping you from moving forward?